minorthird

so…in the last 9 days I have experienced more emotions and more “stuff” — I know that I could find a word other than “stuff” but I’m averaging 3 hours of sleep a night. The birth of our son was the most amazing event I’ve ever witnessed. Being sucked into the world of Children’s Hospital Boston and the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit and seeing the most effortless efficiency all of these wonderful people working in unison to care for Samson. Experiencing the highs and lows and holding your breathe moments throughout every step of his heart surgery. Living life watching for ever-changing benchmarks like producing more urine than the amount of fluids he was taking in on one day or maintaining blood pressure and weaning off of the Dopamine or those first productive coughs after ventilator extubation. Watching Erika have to go through the life-altering act of childbirth and the pains and emotions attached to it and also having to go through having a child have open heart surgery, all within a week.

I thought I would be able to express it better here but I have spent the last 9 days absorbing everything and instead of being a sponge that can be wrung out, I’ve become a vault.

I am forever a changed man by all of this.

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